If you find yourself scratching your head and asking, "What am I supposed to make of this?" Or, "What am I supposed to do now?" Those are the questions which almost always lead to vocation.
Know that those questions are calling you into co-creative status with God - to make something, to do something together with God.
You already have a savior.
You are calling a rector – the person who can come here and know who your are and affirm that identity and love you enough to help you be faithful to your vocation, to what God is calling you to do and be; to that vision God has of who you are and what God needs you to accomplish in this time and this place.